Coming out of the Closet

I am a closet eater.  At parties and social gatherings, I hardly eat a thing.  I don't want to make a spectacle of myself and I don't want to run in to the food police.  If the fat girl doesn't eat in front of people, the fat girl does not get judged.  I have overheard things like "how does she expect to lose weight when she eats that?" etc.  I eat healthy for the most part.  I love fresh fruit and veggies!  I eat a lot of low fat, high fiber food (my portions need some work). 

When no one is looking though, that is when I indulge.  Not huge binges but that is when I eat sugary, fatty foods, when I am stressed an no one is watching.  I'll get fries at the drive through or grab a candy bar at the store that I stick in my purse to be eaten in the car before I get where I am going etc. 

I knew when I began, that this blog might not be so pretty but I am here to honestly take the weight off once and for all.

Read about my day and then fast forward to just after I wrote the letter to the principal when I quietly excused my self from my hubby and kids to "go do something".   I went in to the pantry and got the box of candy down from the top shelf and comforted my stress with chocolate.   6 fun size candy bars later and a sick feeling in the pit of my stomach made me realize I had to come out and admit my short coming.  I am a junky.  It's sick!  I have an addiction that I need to overcome.  I will do this for my husband (he is amazing and still sees me as beautiful with all of the extra weight) I will do this for my kids.  I will do this for my self.